Tuesday 28th March 2023
I was waking up at 4.30am again convinced it was Wednesday and went into a slight panic about my Heritage Tour preparation for Saturday. So I started making mental lists and after a good half hour I realised it's Tuesday! Yey, a full day extra. I eventually put the radio on and just watched the sky begin to lighten.
It's one of my dear late friend's birthday today and my thoughts rambled onto the gift of friendship that I've had all my life. Some friends I hardly connect with but when we do manage to meet in person, it's so special. I'm particularly grateful for the contact during the crazy period of lockdown when all my connections were virtual. It was like my childhood imaginary friends in my head were living in my phone. It's similar when I'm traveling but it's so vital to my existence to connect. The virtual friendship of the internet has kept my late friend contactable. I get memories of conversations, jokes and comments and in those moments she's just a click away.
Tonight, I was watching a Netflix series, Firefly Lane, which deals with 2 best friends over the various phases of their lives and I thought about my need to have a 'best friend'. It used to be so important to me but now I realise how healthy it is to have an assortment of real close friends. My codependent needs have shifted. I no longer 'need to needed' in order to mean something. I mean something to me and at last, I'm realising that that's the best person to please.
It's fabulous having friends that enjoy spending time with me and I'm loving my time on my own too. The appreciation for the friends that check in every now and then is real and I've said it before here, but virtual friendship feels real too, it's genuine.
So I'm genuinely grateful for celebrating Carrie's birthday through the veil, because I had to get 'her' cake, haha.
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