Three Saturday evenings, I have lain on my Durban bnb bed and scribbled little notes on this blog.
One of my friends remarked that my writing doesn't have the same emotional depth on these notes and I am sorry if you miss it. My emotional state since I have started living this dream like life is one of awe.
Awe that my life reached a point where all of the factors lined up .
Awe that I overcame many of my tiny fears which all accumulated into deep underlying anxiety, because if they hadn't cleared, I wouldn't be here.
Awe that dreams do come true.
Awe that there are many more interesting things to see, learn, feel, taste, explore and experience than I ever thought possible.
Awe that my lovely friends, loved ones and acquaintances are all supportive of my adventure, even if they don't understand it.
Awe that this scaredy cat, homebody, who hated driving, was fearful of change, and needed a degree of certainty, is sitting here far from familiar, full of curiosity and peace that I hardly know what tomorrow will bring and that I truly am okay with all of it.
Three months till Christmas lol!
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