Tuesday 16th May 2023
My daily calendar is very confused. Today was Wednesday and I spent a lot of the early morning looking at jobs online. My sister was working so I took things slower than the previous few days by staying on my phone in the rabbit hole of job sites. It's fascinating seeing the different scopes of jobs and I'm amazed at how many jobs are available. If I stayed in London, I could be a guide on various different styles of tours, I could even act as a witch! I'm not immediately looking for a job per say, there's a bit of leeway for me, fortunately but it's still really interesting.
This year's Spring introduction to the Northern Hemisphere feels really different from my entry last year. I was moving on adrenaline, zooming around London until my tooth stopped me. This time, I'm feeling cautious yet relaxed because I know that life always works out for me, even in some topsy turvy ways. It's also easier being in the familiar surroundings of my family and I'm truly grateful for my tribe. I think in a way, I'm still surprised that I can live this nomadic way and perhaps I need to change my way of addressing my life.
This isn't mid-life, nor is it a gap year, it's now my way of being. It's not going to suddenly get taken away from me and I can make a living while on the journey. Life is very short and I was reminded of it today too.
I travelled with my other sister and her husband to the large hospital for his immunotherapy treatment. As he went up to the ward, we sat in the 'Nanna cafe' and had coffee. I watched all sorts of patients get wheeled around, or walk painfully behind drips in various stages of treatment. I had several thoughts...
- how different my life would have been, had I stayed nursing
- how amazing the human body is and how fragile chemistry can affect our health
- what a blessing to still have really good health and to appreciate every moment.
In South Africa, a dear family friend is undergoing a huge health emergency and as her family sit by her side, the reminder of how quickly life can change is reiterated.
Being gentle with myself is a mantra I often have to remind myself of, and I like to say it to others. So I'm saying it again here, now...
Life is short, be gentle with yourself.
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