Readying

A few friends have asked me if I am ready to leave and I have answered 'not yet'.

A friend yesterday, said that she needed to say goodbye. I have, for the longest time, always had the approach of saying 'see you later'. I realised that saying goodbye is really hard for me so I have softened the approach to be that it's never goodbye forever and it has kind of worked as a protective device. My gran and aunt used to visit from Scotland when I was a child and I remember being so tortured by saying goodbye so I adapted the situation to suit me.

I realise now, that I was avoiding the pain and that's ok, but in living in the moment-pain is sometimes a byproduct of life.

My day today was full of painful moments but also full of delight. My 'running wife' got her final exam results and is now a graduate of Law, I felt like a proud mama.

It was bitter cold this morning and we woke to a continued power outage. Cold water geyser and no music was a bleak reality so I made alternate plans for a hot shower and a warm breakfast at a local coffee shop. I remembered to buy myself a travel mug with a lip that closes. Looking at the silver surface standing in line to pay, I suddenly had a flash. 'This is really happening'.

I smiled and under my mask which was quite welcome for a change because of the icy wind.

One small mug for man, but one giant purchase for this girl. Mugs away!

One glug away to ready!