Friday 19th January 2024
One of my dear friends died while I was overseas and on my return to Johannesburg, I kept feeling like she should be in her house so I should just pop in. Grief plays tricks with the brain and even though I know that, it still felt surreal to know that she is gone. Her husband, Roman and son are still in the city and tonight I was invited to a barbecue (braai) at their house.
There was a couple who are holidaying from the UK, staying with Roman and I remembered them from previous events so was nice to see them. Other friends and the grandchildren were there too so it was a lovely 'icebreaker' to do the thing that my friend, Jackie, loved to do which was to entertain.
The house seemed different, as if it's already adjusted, yet I hadn't and it felt strange not having her burst through the room with laughter and joy. Her husband is making small changes but his devastation is simmering under the surface. He loved having us all there and his grandchildren are helping him heal his loss. Some of us ladies chatted about how we met Jackie and how we still can't believe that she's gone. Life can be so unfair sometimes.
But it also continues for us and tonight was a lovely attempt at continuing without her. We miss her..
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